Pain in right knee; open eyes; stare at ceiling; close eyes; now knee throbbing; shift around; tuck quilt into a sleeping bag; pull quilt over head; hide; try to sleep again; shut eyes; one; two; shut eyes tight; three; wide!awake!; curse; peer at clock; will it to go faster; beg; will pay; fucking knee; then heart pounding; realising; recalling; forgetting who I am; remembering who I am not; whole world's worth of burden on chest; can't move; suffocating; can't breathe; sit up; try to stand; room spins; crumble against wall; try to stand; room still spinning against the earth; knee collapses; sit down; crawl under; shut eyes, everything still spinning; something stabbing at knee; repeat;
Still entirely mundane ...
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